開學後第一週某堂課的尾聲，老師要我們拿出一張白紙。
想像，此刻來到了自己的告別式或葬禮，有個人即將宣讀給自己的追思文。
再想像，這個人會怎麼敘說我這一生的故事。
再想像，在這些人心中，我留給這個世界的是什麼形象。
思考了好一陣子，還是很難下筆
是真的沒有想過，在自己的告別式上，那追思文的字句會如何被人們吐出。
She, our beloved friend, led a colorful and cool life. She was open-minded, adventurous, and enthusiastic about what she loved, traveling and cuisines. She was always passionate about experiencing new things no matter when it was and no matter where she was. She enjoyed traveling alone and embraced the world in her special manner.
To her friends, she was sometimes careless and really had a poor sense of direction, but she was crazily courageous to adventure, accomplishing lots of surprising things. Besides, she treated her friends sincerely and was named "food guide" by her foreign friends.
To her family, she wasn't that obedient when it comes to her dreams, sticking to what she wanted to realize. Although sometimes she was too busy to accompany with her family, she really loved them and cherished every moment when they were together.
To all of us, she was really a special woman that we would no longer forget.
這是當下花了20幾分鐘寫的東西，還有些粗淺吧。
不過，在思考與下筆的同時，卻也上演了不少內心戲，
包含矛盾打架、自我懷疑、反覆確認的過程；當然，也包含短時間探索後的遲來的領悟。
原以為似乎已經接近那些渴望擁有的特質，卻在筆尖落下的那秒發現自己根本還差得很遠。
原來距離自己心目中渴望成為的那種人還差一大段，
原來距離希望在別人心裡留下的那個形象還差一大段，
其實滿震懾的，自己竟然未曾停下腳步來好好想過這些，只是自顧自地跑著趕著。
但至少慶幸有了這份體悟，讓我還有四分之三的人生可以更改這份追思文吧。
繼續朝著那個理想中的自己邁進，只是記得提醒自己：
偶爾也該緩一緩，不要再跑那麼快了。
